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its been quite a long time i dint update my blog..kinda lazy i would say..@_@….REALLY really really tire and tention for the past few weekssSS…hmm…feel so uncertainty and so left out in my new and strange uni…dont know how to express my feeling here but actually its quite ok at the beginning,still feel so bright for my future..lol..but…just after a month or mayb less than that..start to feel like i m not belong to here..i guess this is what ppl mean by culture shock gua…its really SHOCK man…lol..

tans of tans of worksSSs hv to complete..assignmentSSss…no matter the big 1 or the small 1….got atleast 2 assignmentSs+presentationSs in a week…some more the weird system in UCSI..no fix class..every1 can choose for the subject they want each sem..so every1 wil choose the different subjects..means u’l probably c different ppl in ur class…WEIRD rite??hardly for me to find fren there..when im free,they r not free;when im not free, they r free…wanna organise some programmes oso canot..aii…AND…my classmate r really really strong..especially the public speaking class..everytime feel so despair and desperate after seeing their presentationssSs,so *speechless* everytime in the class..

there’s a story here~~~last week i was having my powerpoint presentation again with another gal*2person in a group*, and we already DISCUSS and COMFIRM with our presentation ,means, v’l start with the tv advertisement 1st, then she start the powerpoint and gv the intro,then my turn to talk bout few slides and finally she continue the rest..seems so perfect rite?? YEAH..the story turn out to be…when i wanna show the ad, she come to my place and close my file, then open the powerpoint and start presenting..i was like "ok..we’l do it at the end", but,she seems so OVER EXITING..she talk and talk and talk till she talk all my point there, she dont even look at my GREEN BLUE BLACK face there,stand by the side like an idiot*sigh*..FINALLY,when she almost done the whole thing, she finally realise my existent and gv the last 3 nothing-to-talk-about slides for me..ooo..THANK SO MUCH..after my slides then i continue my presentation by letting my classmate to c the 2ad and do a comparison about that.when i was about to open my mouth and tell them the answer___..she say:"ok,this both r the same, thanks!!" =.=""""..hei DEAR, im asking them to compare just now ler,cant u hear tat,B*T*H!!!!!i m so so angry and finding myself really stupid,open my mouth in big "O shape"…*cursing*… even all my frens also notice tat y i dint talk much…T_T….

she’s really a selfish person, do anyhitng without thinking about my situation, she just never follow the plan and think tat there is only 1 person in the presentation..HOI..PLS LAA…im human being ler..DAMMIT!!!>_<…i dont wan to go to my lecturer and act like a gold finger complainning here and there..yes, i know this is my mark, i should do something on it…actually wanna talk ot her after class,who knows..she just disappear in a sudden..SHIT..i c her the other day but i think, ok its past already, i dont wan to bring it out again…*sigh*

yeah..i know it all bcos of my lousy english..i just cant compete with her..she is so fluent and there is no way for me to cut her off..she talk all my points that im already prepare when come ot the points i dint prepare i really got nothing to say…i just dont like those can blahhh it out once u c a word or even a picture..im kinds disappointed and upset of myself…i think i shouln’t blame other as i oso have to take some initiative on my own work..i should stop her and talk bout my point of view…i should hv take responsible for my part…

anyhow,its all ended now..it really a good experiance for me…this story really encourage me to do something on my improvement of english..i cant let the same thing happen again..being CONTROL and BEAT sooo easily…

"U…yeah..is U..im talking to u now..listen up here B**CH…i’l never give up and i’l prove to every1 here~~~I"L NEVER LOST TO SOME1 SO USELESS LIKE U!!!!~~~V(^0^)V..im so talented after all..lol..

p/s:im same group with her again for the next task..OMG..T_T